T.T

Seriously, I don't know why but this morning I've been feeling like crying at the thought of certain someone. Normally I'd always be confident that whenever I got a chance to see him, I would be able to just act normally and greet him with respect and smile. But today was different... When I imagined those thoughts in my mind, suddenly I could feel tears were ready to burst from my eyes, and that feeling had been weighing me down so far... Probably it's because all of the efforts I've been putting through only to see him finally took their tolls on me... *sigh* But I'm not gonna give up mid-way. I might need a good good cry, and should be fine after...

Another thing was parents. Especially mom. It's not that I'm unhappy that she's here. But when she gets exceptionally demanding with her lack-of-patience attitude, it really gets on my nerve. Plus another possibility of moving out. I try to keep myself calm about this. Part of me want to move out so my parents can just shut up and settle. Also so that they will always have place to stay if they wanted to visit Sydney next time. And if I really had to move out, I'll just see it as another obstacle I need to overcome before JYJ concert to make that concert even more rewarding after all what I've been through before the event... The only thing I hate about moving places is the packing and yah, pindah2in barangnya itu. Nggondok abis mikirnya. But then again, it's good if this moving thingy actually happens when my parents are here coz they can do the job. It's not originally my wish to move out, so I don't really want to be big part of the whole plan. Of course I'll do as best as I could to help, but sorry to say, I'm so happy that I actually have WORK to do. It makes perfect excuses to stay out of the business during the 5-days of the week~ HA...

What else? My boss has been in exceptionally bad mood although I can understand enough it has nothing to do with me. And I just want to make sure that his run-down mood really didn't get to me! Yeah!!!!

On a lighter note, I was actually quite excited to learn about StanChar Graduate opportunity from Manda... The closing date won't be til July. Let's see what we can do about that one :p

(exhausted and teary) Ms. J~